Also, last night was gate night, or pumpkin night, miscihf night, devils night, or what ever else you want to call it. And I got pranked. Not a great prank mind you, and it may not have been a prank at all....
So as BZ and I are driving back from a quick shopping trip at Kohls, I notice large black trash bag in the street in front of my drive way. As I'm not one to drive over random trash bags, I avoid it and pull in. I get out of the car to pick up the trash and what is the bag full of???
Fish, big salmon sized fish.
I'm guessing who ever had them was going to throw them at houses or cars or something and probably caught sight of the cop who lives down the street, We have one on eithor side of us, and ditched the bag of fish.

Idiots.

Happy Halloween and Hapy monday, well not really. Slowly this holiday has gone from my favorite to one of my least. This year so far has been no exception.
I woke up this morning to the sound of doggie yacking. I took her out for a bit and she was doing a little better, but I think she is ill in some regaurd. She didn't want to eat her food this morning and didn't really even want treats. She was cold and shivvering. I wish I could have stayed home with her, but I've got too much to do at the moment.
Truthfully I'm not in much better shape. I must have pulled something in my back last night, not doing anything fun and worthwhile. This morning when I woke up, besides having to take the dog out, I realized I could hardly move, without experiencing shocking pain. Somehow I was able to make it in, but now I'm feeling even worse, kind of flu like sick. This could just be from a weekend of sleeping little and drinking much.

Speaking of drinking much and sleeping little, the games this weekend were great. Friday night I ran the party through a night of the living dead sort of deal, with more skeletons and zombies than they could shake a stick at. Even though these monsters are pathetically weak, with enough of them you really start to wear down a high level party, especially when you won't let them rest and regain spells and such. Eithor way I think it ended up being challenging and fun.
The eadible dungeon was just something else. I haven't had so much fun playing since Eric left for texas. Even though my character was clearly the weakes of the bunch , he had a lot of good RP stuff to get into so I had a ball with him. Tempest did an excelent job running the show, combat was fun, the RP was challenging, and the monsters were yummy. The other two people in the party brough some homebrewed beer with them, which is possible the best beer I've ever had. At the start of the night I was a little afraid I wouldn't really be able to get into the bard's character, but 3 drinks later I was rattling off speaches and cracking my whip lake a mad man.

Well I have to compose myself a bit and get some work done before I can bug out to check on doggie. I really hope she is ok.

Its been a stressful and somewhat annoying week. I'm just glad its about over.
Experiments were a big flop. So it was a nice couple days wasted, which sucks when I nreally want to be done with what I am doing and be able to move on to my real research.

At least its game night, but as usual I have less than a lot prepared and only a few ideas to work with so we'll see turns up. I was hoping to so something spookie for halloween, but it just isn't comming together.

On saturday, my friend Tempest is going to run a game with an eadible dungeon, so I'm really looking forward to that. She let me make up the characters for it and I must say they are all cool and should be fun to play. Of cource I got stuck with the bard, but as one of the few classes I've never played it should be fun anyway. She has sent out a history for each character and a bit of how they function in the party, which is good. I'm expecting a decent amount of silliness, some maxed out over acting, and a great day of sickeningly sweet fun.

Sunday I may go down to Ian's place to see him and Camile. I was supposed to go to a halloween party on saturday, but chances are the game will run into the party time. Its ok since I went to the party last year and it was maxed out lame. The best and only good part were the candy corn races. This year should have been a bit better. Ian and I have been working up a new card game we were going to demo there. Its based on funny phony court cases and should be high paced with lots of yelling and excitement. Would have been nice to see the demo, but an eadible dungeon only comes around once in a great while.
I would like to get down to see camile. She hasn't been doing so great. She still hasn't found a job and her back is really starting to act up, and she dosen't have any insurance. I wish there was something I could do for her, but besides moral support I'm pretty useless in this sence.

Thats about it. I'll let you all know how it went on monday.

Also, I have possibly the worst case of pipetor's thumb imaginable. For those of you who don't know its kind of like tennis elbow only you get it in your thumb from use of a pipettman, see rannin.com for details.
I don't know how I'm going to be able to paint figures for this week.

Not sure if I should record this as of who reads it, but thats never stopped me before. If y'all don't feel like reading today I won't be offended in fact it may be for the best.

Teaser:

Every wonder what it would be like to have a 3 some with your current signifigant other and your ex......

Yeah now is a good time to stop reading.








Well I sort of found out in a sence.
I had a very vivid dream last night. For some reason my Ex had come over to my parent's house. I'm not exactly sure why. For the same unknown reason she ended up riding back to my place with me and BZ. This was one of those dreams where nothing really makes sence it just sort of happens. K the ex was beng extra bitchy, but then starts fooling around with BZ in the car. Some where along the way its discussed that we should all have a fling of sorts together, K was also bitchy about that.
We magically apear in the bedroom and go at it. The whole thing was very cold and passionless and not the least bit fun. We just sort of assumed this position where I was on the botton with K sitting backward in my lap with BZ going down on her from the front. I wasn't in the normal place if you know what I mean, which is odd because K usually didn't like that. I asked her if I could do it the other way as it just wasn't enjoyable and I figured it wasn't really good for her eithor.
All of a sudden we're back in the car and she is yelling at me from the back seat about how she wouldn't let me do it that way because she forgot to take her pill and there were some other reasons and she was extra bitchy even more so that I usually remember her being.

It was around there that I awoke in a cold sweat at about 4:40AM. It seemed to be a better idea to get up and take a shower and start my day than risk getting back into that mess.
In some way I feel like it was some sort of metaphor for our relationship, but I haven't worked all that out yet.

I'm really getting tired of being miserable. What ever feelings I had for K are finally starting to fade, but as I feared all of the other ones I have are fading as well. I see now only points of misery and depression. I think its real this time. I was home a few nights back and went through my drawer of memories and looked over pictures of us from when we were happy. They didn't bring up any reall emotion, except that she looked like crap in them.
I still miss Sarah a bit, who was in and out of my life in a blink. I wasn't who I am now when I knew her. I'm not ever really sure who I was, but she just kind of got me. I don't think anyone really has since.
In their defence though most days I don't even get me.
I miss Jen as well. She was never a kindered spirit sort of person, but we had fun.
Most of the rest of the drawer was just misery, bad memories, and emptyness.

I should get back to work before I delve to far into all of this.

So in the latest news in the good old US Alan Greenspan, the guy who has been head of the tresury department or something like that for the last 15 years is retiring and we have a lovely Bush nomination to replace him.
Now this guy's job was to adjust intrest rates and stuff like that to stabilize the economy.
I've seen Bush's economics at work and this leaves me scared. I always kind of thought the US was a very stable place, that no one person could really cause that much change to it. All of those childish thoughts have been greatly proved wrong in the last 6 years.
Just about everyone Bush has put in office has been a moronic stoogie only out for the interests of those close to Bush. With this change I see a high rise in inflation and an entrance into another era of depression.

France is looking beter and better.

Well the weekend was somewhat of a bust. Friday night I drove ofver to my parent's place for some chinese food. Its always nice to see them and chat for a while. BZ and my sis made popcorn balls.
Saturday we were supposed to go to King Richard's Faire, which is always a blast. Instead it rained and the day was pretty much a waste spent watching TV or something like that. The weather forcast said it would rain sunday and monday as well so we put off KRF until next year. Sat night we went back to the parent's house and watched "Batman Begins". I must say I was kind of dissappointed. Some parts of it I liked. It was interesting to see how they did where batman came from and how he was trained. So the film had some good ideaqs, but the rest just wasn't there. The writing needed a lot of work. Their one liners were sad and not delivered well. There were also a lot of spots that seemed to be openings for one liners and we just not used. Directing was ok. They could have shot a number of the scenes beter. I'm not a fan of the high speed close up shots. They just looks silly most of the time and are used because a lot of studois now refuse to hire good stunt men. To top it all off, Christian Bale just couldn't carry the role in my oppinion. I'm not a huge fan of his to begin with, but in all the things I've liked him in he was the bad guy. He would have made a better less comical two face or riddeler. As batman he was kind of creepy and more often than not just spoiled rich boy. Also I really hate Kattie Holmes. She is not hot, she is not fun, she is not funny, in fact I can't really think of a god reason to use her in anything. She is angst ridden and dull and bad combination.
Ok and one final comment on the film. We've run out of decent batman villians. This becomes a problem when you kill off the villian after each film. Batman is all about not killing villians and locking them up in Arkham asylum so they are free to escape and be a villian again. In the films though they have done a kill off after just about every villian so now we're scraping the barrel as to who to have to be the bad guys.
So in finally batman begins, thumbs down.

Sunday I got up late and realized the weather stations were wrong. It didn't really rain all sunday and hasn't started yet today so we could have gone to the faire and had a good time. Instead it was another day of TV watching and some cleaning. I picked up some new D&D stuff. Got some nice figured and books.

As of late things seem to be slowing down for me. I think I'm getting more and more bored and tired of a lot of what is my now. Some sort of drastic change might be comming.

No news on the trail of blood, which isn't that suprising. The school is part hospital and a floor of that is reserved for prisoners and state mental instution type crazies so they probably don't want a panic.
When I left last night all traces of the trail were gone, washed clean away as if it never happened. This is the beginning of what going crazy feels like.

Nothing big for news otherwise today. Another tired morning. I'm slowly assembling a new card game. I purchased batman begins and land of the dead last night but haven't had a chance to watch eithor.

Ah and yes in responce to comments, we only had one real fatility last friday at game. The other was a case of aligning yourself with an evil god to, how you say, "Stick it to your husband" :). It was some good RP eithor way.

To catch up a bit, I've been on the edge of beat tired all week and barly able to sit down.
This weekend I saw "Kingdom of Hevean" It was a decent flick. It was nice to see Orlando Bloom a bit more dirty and not the wuss he was in "Troy". I must say though Orlando really can't pull off those motivating speaches, used to rally crowds to your agendas, like Mel did in "Braverheart", or that Strider guy did in LotR films. It was a drastic improvement over "Alexander" but then it's not hard to be. There were quite a few good action scenes and I liked how they dumped on the religious stuff from time to time. Our world really needs more people to speak out rationally and make sence, instead of just quoting some ancient book and claiming holy forces support what ever stupid agenda you have.

Also we played on friday, for having only prepared a small part of the adventure the group decided to run off on, I think I did pretty well. We did have two fatilities, one of which was restored. I feel a bit bad about the other, but when you deal with the devil.....

Its been a few days since I posted and I was going to tell a fun story about seeing a bumper sticker which said "Frodo failed, Bush got the ring". I though it was clever. Then there was this pidgeon whihc was talking to me.
Instead I'll wind back my day.
So I arrive at school and get out of my car. I notice this chick who has been stalking one of my lab mates, but she isn't really important to the story. So I begin walking up to the side entrance from the gararge. I get about half way up and look down and see a splash of what I figure is fruit punch or squished berries, or something like that. I don't think much of it. About a set further there is another splash, its a grouping of red droplets. Then another about a step beyond that.
I begin to think. 'Thats not fruit punch'. The trail continues up the hill. About 50 feet more it gained some foot prints in it. Finally it lead up to one of the entrances into the school.
Let me say there is nothing like a trail of blood to kick start your morning and this had that bleeding profusly sort of feel to it.

You scored as River Tam. The Fugitive. You are clever and dangerous, which is a nasty combination. The fact you are crazy too just adds to your charm. They did bad things to you, but you know their secrets. They will regret how they made you. River Tam 81% The Operative 69% Kaylee Frye 69% Capt. Mal Reynolds 63% Hoban 'Wash' Washburne 56% Shepherd Derrial Book 56% Zoe Alleyne Washburne 50% Simon Tam 44% Inara Serra 31% Jayne Cobb 25% Which Serenity character are you? created with QuizFarm.com

Not totally unexpected.
I thought I was going to end up simon, but failed on the question about acting proper.
Been sick the last few days, whihch sucks. I did like the short time off work though. Every now and then you just need a rest. I still feel like I need a real vacation some time soon, but this breather should be enough to keep me going.

The weekend was good. Worked sat morning, then went to a costume party sat night. Was a good time, but the stripper never showed up (long story) well maybe not long but I don't feel like retelling it just now.
Sunday saw serenity again. I must say it was just as good the second time around. Unfortunatly I don't think its getting the amount of dollars they would need to make a second one.

Monday and tuesday were spent eithor in bed or painting figures. I'm back in a painting swing.
Not too much else to say. Trouble as always are just a half step behind me so I can't slow down again.

Its another stress filled day of trying to write a paper at the last minute. You think I would have learned some sort of lesson by now, but here we are again.

School stress is slowly spilling over into normal life as well. Free time has been nonexistant this last week. Any time I spend not doing work feels like a waste, even sex hasn't been enjoyable. Maybe I'll just give it up for a while. I'm working up to that point where I just need a vacation from life for a while. Even a weekend would be nice, but not this weekend. I have another presentation to give on monday, ugh.

Well its done. As slow as I tried to go, the presentation only lasted about 20ish minutes. As I finished speaking there was a thunderous round of applause.......
no, actually the exact opposite happened. Silence, a couple of minutes must have gone by before anyone spoke. I got asked a few questions. One about wether the work I was doing had any real meaning, which was nice. Thanks H, actually I think he was just doing it to transition into the "What would be a good/ more important project to do" question.
Then there was a question about numbers of concentrations of molecules in a living organism, which I had no idea on.
Then a question about the molecules I was working with being useful in protection against viruses, wich when you think about it is kind of silly, since they are only found in spores and spores are pretty much protected from viruses by other factors.
There was one other question, as well but its not comming to me.
I was able to answer most of the questions to a decent degree. Screwed up a few and made it through the presentation alive. Always a bonus.

So now its off to speed read a paper and write a paper for thursday. Man do I love school.

Well here we are again. Time is ticking down, only 3 hours left until my presentation so 4 hours from now it will be done and I'll be back to normal...well you know what I mean.
The nice thing about having work like this to do is I don't have any mind power to spare for anything else.

In short to catch up, weekend was decent. Came in to school on saturday. Then went to see "serenity" on Saturday night. I must say it was fantastic. Joss is a marvel. This film had everything I could want and even a few things I really didn't, but they made it better anyway. I strongly suggest all of you go see it. If it does well enough there will be two more to follow it. It would really be a shame for something this good to be just lost in the crowd, especially with crap like "into the blue" or whatever it is call out now. I'd give a more detailed review of the film, but I don't want to give away any of it, and there is a lot to give away.

Sunday was a sort of stressed lazy day. I worked on my presentation and watched firefly, missing all the greatness that it was and could have been. I think I'm going to see the film again this weekend if anyone feels like going let me know.