Well its 1 day till test time and cram cram cram.
Last night had some odd factors in it, besides the lack of signifigant studying.
As I was about to go up to bed and decided to take doggie out for one last walk of the night. So I leashed her up and out we went. As I stodd on my front lawn waiting for the little missy to do her business I notice two old nasty broads in the street. doggie notices as well and lets out a bark. One of the ladies sees me and calls out, "Bill come over here." Doggie barks again.
I call back, "I'm not bill."
Nasty ladie, "Bill you've got to see this. Its not going to happen again for another 7 years."
Freeze frame:
In order for you to truly understand the stuation you need to be privy to a couple of details.
Bill is my tenant. He's about 40 years older than me, shorter, much fatter, he allso dosen't have a dog. In order to mistake me for him you would have to be drunk, very very drunk. Now from where I'm standind I can see this broad is wearing some sort of overcoat and is holding it closed with her arms as if ready to open up and give the world a peeksie at something that shouldn't be seen ever, let alone every 7 years.
Time in:
Doggie continues to bark.
At this point Bill finally comes out. And Drunkie and her friend start gooing "Oh there you are. The Eclipes is really going, you can really see it."
Very thankful that she was talking about an eclipse, I decide to walk down along the road so I can get a better view. Needless to say the moon was full, totally unblocked by annything, no eclipse.
What else I noticed was the biker boys from next door were walking back home. They see me as well and make a B-line.
Now when I say bikers, I'm talking bicycles, with white shirt, black tie, jacket, with finly done name tags that say Elder so and so on them.
They introduce themselves, ask me what I do. I tell them. We chat for a bit bout Pfizer and drugs and dogs. then I ask them what thhey do.
"Oh," They say, "We spread the word of Jesus christ."
Now this comes as no shock to me. "Ah, Does it pay well?" I respond.
"We're doing this off of our savings." I am told, followed by, "Its not just Jesus we talk about but a very special sect. Have you ever heard of The book of mormon."
At this point I have a decision to make, for I have heard of the book of mormon and know quite a bit about certain inconsisiencies in it and a lot of the idiotic things they beleive and a lot of idiotic things they used to beleive and now pretend it was never a practice among them. fortunatly for these two I was feeling in a good mood.
I say I had a few mormon friends. They ask if I would like to gettogether with them and talk more about it. I tell them I fall on the other side of things and am an Atheist.
Here coes the big pitch....
"So" one begins, "you're a microbiologist (now I told them I'm a molecular biologist, but we'll let this sllide), I had a friend who was a molecular biologist." He pauses as if searching for a name. I'm sure it was one of these classical microbiologists some irrefutable name, too bad he couldn't remember. "He once said, that when you look under a microscope and see all there is there, its hard not to see god." I'm certain he screwed up this qote as well. "Do you ever see anything like that."

I respond, "Everything I've seen can be explained by nature in one way or another. You know what the great thing about seeing god is." I pause for a moment, "you can see god anywhere you want. Wether its some thing which you don't really understand like science or something simple like making toast. You know you put the bread in and push the button and toast pops up. Where does the toast coe from? did god change it?"

They seem a bit dumbfounded at this and quickly switch the subjest to how cool my dog is. A few moments later they head back to their place in defeat. Hoody Hoo!!

I should have told them to come by and let them now all about mormanism. It would have been a blast. Maybe soe other day.

This day just seems to get better and better.
I reran the SSCP method today and all seemed to be going well until I took my gel out of the case its in and put it onto the paper we use to hold it. The darn thing folded over in the middle so that there was this big crappy crease in it. I tried to get it out but to no avail. So now the photo plate of it looks really shitty. Not to mention the fantastic results from the last time this experiment was run seem to have dissappeared. Which also means I have to do a longer exposure to make sure. So instead of being out of here at 3 to get home and study. It looks like I'm here till 4:30 ish.
I was able to get my bacteria transfered to broths and found a place to do sequencing for me. I was kind of looking forward to doing that myself, but I guess this works too.
In good news the test dosen't look too hard. It will still require some studying and reading time, but I should get by.

Well today has been a gemm so far. Got into a fight last night with BZ about the proper way to use pipetman. She got all pissy and now we're not speaking. We haven't fought in a while so I guess we were due. At least it was about somethig trivial. Though I do have to say, the matter is only trivial to me. My argument is "you're not using the pipetman correctly". Her argument is "You don't listen to what I say" or "you won't accept any oppiniion except your own". so apparently its much more deeply rooted than scientific technique. Let me just say thats is quite nice that we only get to spend 3-4hrs a day wth each other (sleeping time dosen't coount) and we just wasted half of that time in some idiotic fight.

In bbetter news it looks like my transformation may have worked. At least I have colonies today. Also Henry liked the data I showed him the other day ad even said some thing to the tune of, "you now have some real data so send me that project file you have been working on". I haven't had a moment to get the presentation in order in the last few weeks. So once again I'm double timing it.
Crazy busy here.
Test on friday I have only just begn to study for.
Unplesantness with BZ.
Bills pilling up and money just trickeling in.
There is probably even more, but thats all I can focus on right now.
I just want to sit back and watch it all burn.

Well today has been quite a bit hectic, but first a little catch up.

On sat, me and Bz took a way out of the way road trip up to the land of ass, I mean mass. there we spent many hours touring the lesser known areas, jamacia pond, The arburitum, various hospitals, until we finally found ourselves at my sisters appartment. From there it was a quick leap to the train and a long wait for a bus, which wasn't supposed to stop where we were waiting. Finally we reached the museum of Science. There we saw a fantastc LotR display. All of the orgional costumes, weapons, rings, ect from the film. Lots of info on all of it, some from Tolken's works, some about who made the actuall pieces. There was also a lot there on how they did the CGI, with some motion capture stuff you could try out. Me and BZ go pictures of ourselves hobbit sized. The rest of the museum was sciencerific. Exibits on fluid dynamics, states of matter, ight and lasers, and much much more. so after about 20 minuites we were out of there and onto Aldente', a very tasty Itilian resturant. Some good chicken parm and some homemade pasta went down and we made one final stop at mike's pasteries for some canolies before heading home.

Sunday I woke up late, didn't make it in to school, and only got a few slides made for the papers. It was pretty much a waste of a day. I did however get to see a cinderella story. It was a cute and fairly funny film. for anyone who actually knows me, please disregaurd those last few lines. I've never seen anything Hilliary Duff stars in.

monday was a whirlwind of activity. I spent most of the day rushing around trying to get the presentation ready. I gave the presentation at 3:00. It went over about as well as could be expected concidering the data was total crap. At least I went so I would hope for a decent grade in the class.

Today, I spent the morning trying to read another paper for Biochem class. I got through it once, but didn't know the figures well enough to explain the in class so no big extra credit for me. Hopefully there will still be some. this after noon I was going to set up a PCR experiment with my new primers, but henry decided the cloning would be more usefull. Then I got stuck going to a seminar which I though was pretty useless untill Henry asked me about it. I'm still not totaly convinced of its value, but apparently he is. After the seminar in the middle of my transfrmation, he came by again and said a repeat of an SSCP experiment I did was critical data to have, so that got thrown together today as well. So its pretty much been go go go all day. Then while I was streaking my plates of "hopefully" transformed bacteria, some ethanolsplashed onto the counter top and caught fire. fortunatly we tape these diper things onto the counter to soak up radioactive stuff so it caught fire as well. I was able to slap it out with my hand, which is stinging a bit. With any luck no more crap will happen today.

On a side note. My new audio book is "Soon". I'm not sure how much of this book I can take. I should have known from the back cover which went something like...
"Its 36 years after WW3, all Religion is gone, the world is at peace. Jack is head of an international intelegance organization and has been placed in charge of looking into terrorist activities, which some see as miracles. When an attack hits close to home, Jack must look into himself and discover whether or not things are as they seem." or something to that respect.
So far the book is:
Tape 1: The atheist people in charge are bad people. They commit acts of atrociaty, like stuffing suspected christians into barrels of napalm, then lighting them on fire. A bunch of bad science, a few nukes in china kill hunderds of billions of people (there are less than 10 billion peeps now in the whole world), this also causes massive tidal waves that sweep over the pacific, drownd hawaii, and flood most of California. This is all bullshit. Skipping on...
Tape 2: Jack is a total womanizing jerk. He treats his wife like shit and bones lots of chicks o the side. He is allso profoundly atheist and embodies the steriotype entirly. He kills without hesitation, watches as christians are beat to death with bricks, and a lot of other shit like that...
Tape 3: Jack gets blinded in an oil fire. He's even more of a jerk and very self pitying. He starts listening to the New Testimen on tape to try to brush up on the christian threat to stop them by finding out what makes them tick. He takes a trip to DC and on the plane ride back, flys into a storm, where he miraciously pleads with God to save him or somehting like that and with all miracles running full ahead, lighting strikes and Jack feels all tingely. More importantly he sees the light, literally. His seeing begins to return and more annoyingly he begans to rant on and on about how great it is to be a christian and all of the wonderful things Jesus said in the bible.

I'm not sure if I can sit through 5 more discs of this. The books is obviously christian written and really reads more like bible tracks than a story right now. Some annoying stupid things in the book:

1. Christmas is gone, as would be expected in a nonreligious society. It has been replaced by Wintermass. This makes no sence. Winter celebration, Festival of snow, ect I could understand. Christmas is made up of Christ (jesus) and mass (religious gathering for prayer and stuff). Calling it wintermass still sugests its a day of church and prayer, i.e. Mass.

2. In a society that has bee without religiou for 30 some odd years people wouldn't use terms like "foxhole christians" meaning people who only pray when they feel they are in danger.

3. The immence steriotyping of the characters. Every non-christian character is weak, jerky, self pitying, ect. All of the christian characters are noble, true, self sacrificing. They don't fight back when caught, but go peacefully to their deaths. In fact you can tell right off who all of the christians are. If they aren't total jerks and seem somewhat kind then that character is a christian.

4. The lousy science and degree of technology they have. In some ways they are much more advanced than we are now, laser guns and some other stuff. In most ways they are just like us or sometimes are even behind us, i.e. Jack finds a letter from his father written in about 2008 or 9. Its been written with an old fashion ink pen, the kkind you have to draw the ink into. Do tey even still make these now adays?

Well I should get back to work before I spend the rest of my day ranting.

well any fantastcal ideas I was having about getting out early and getting to work on some of the stuff I have to do this weekend are pretty much dashed to the ground and flattened with a steamroller.
I 'm just about to start a gel, which will run for probably over an hour and its already 4pm. With any luck I'll be out of here by 7 ish so instead of being an early night it will be a late night.

I do feel a bit bad for david. He gave me some plasmid to use last night and it didn't work. There was almost none left in the tube and wen he couldn't give the boss the concentration for it and showed him the tube he really got chewed out. "Fucking idiot" I beleive was the term used. I don't like getting people in trouble, especially when they are trying to help.

well any fantastcal ideas I was having about getting out early and getting to work on some of the stuff I have to do this weekend are pretty much dashed to the ground and flattened with a steamroller.
I 'm just about to start a gel, which will run for probably over an hour and its already 4pm. With any luck I'll be out of here by 7 ish so instead of being an early night it will be a late night.

I do feel a bit bad for david. He gave me some plasmid to use last night and it didn't work. There was almost none left in the tube and wen he couldn't give the boss the concentration for it and showed him the tube he really got chewed out. "Fucking idiot" I beleive was the term used. I don't like getting people in trouble, especially when they are trying to help.

Well today has started off well. I got in to the gym this AM. I'm still able to life as much weight as I used to, but I can't do as many reps. Got back home and BZ was having a slow morning, which was kind of nice since we got to have some breakfast together. Unfortunatly I couldn't convince her to take the sick day she is despriatly needing.

The day has unfortunatly been going down hill from there. The massive amount of crappy chinese food I scarfed last night is having dire consiquences. My transformation experiment seems to be a flop. None of the plates I streaked have anything growing on them, yet a plate I spit on seems to have a few colonies. So eithor the bacteria in me are resistant to antibiotics (ampicillian) or my plates are F'ed up. There is a good chance the bacteria I tried to transform are dead or something as well, since they haven't grown at all. I could trouble shoot and try it again today, but then I would have to come in tomorow for the next step in the process and thats not going to happen. Maybe I will come in on sunday and try to get them going.

I shouldn't have known about today. I saw the evil ammulet sitting on my bedside table this AM and had a powerful urge to put it on. I resisted, but apparently the taint of bad luck has found me anyway.

Oh and a little left over from last night. As we were havig chinese food, we all got fortune cookies. Most of my friends pulled the usual fun fortunes: "God things are in your future", "Romance is on the horizon", ect. What do I get?
"You should have a talk with your friend today."
What the shit is that? That must be one of the worst fortunes I have ever gotten. Why don't they just make it say, "Your signifigant other is cheating on you" or "your dog has rabies". Well fortune teller Johnny, you just made my list. Its been a while since I really cursed someone. I am fairly good at it, but it does require you to know a little about the person, their name or what they look like. Maybe I should get back into magic. I had to stop a while back as it tends to screw up scientific experiments. I also burned off a lot of stored energy in one spell and I'm still not back to the power levels I was once at. It is suprisng what it can do though.

I some times question how I can beleive in magic and be a scientist. I'm certainly not the god fearing type. Nor am I one to beleive in something because someone tells me about it. Magic I have seen first hand, have known first hand; though, I wouldn't expect any of you to simply take my word for it.

Well today seems to be right ho moving along.
Took out the trash this AM, which I normally wouldn't mentiion except it was such a massive load. Bag after bag, left the house and found its place by the single can we have. My only hope is the trash guys take it all. We did have a few weeks where they forgot to pickup at our place.

Today in lab excitement I did a transformation, which in laymen's terms means I stuck a plasmid (circular chink of DNA) into bacteria. Its kind of funny, all those techniques you hear about, stuff that seems like it is changing worlds, playing god, usually comes down to some pipeting and heating things. If we weren't meant to play god, he really shouldn't have made it so easy. Same goes for the whole adam and eve apple deal. He could have at least put up a fence or something around the tree. It was just plain laziness the got him defied. sure he can make the whole world, but he can't even put up a fence. Of cource I'm not one to talk as my back year is still unfenced.

So the lab peeps are in a bad sort of fun mood. The PI guy is a major Yankee fan and Sox hater, so he has been in a foul mood today and we have't seen much of him. The 4th year grad student came in in a Sox jersy and has been paradeing back and forth past the PI's office every chance he gets. I have decided today is not the day to go over the crappy lookig data I got from yesterday's experiment.

We do have a happy hour today which is nice and from what I hear its going to be chinese food. Since I got a late start today I haven't really eaten anything yet.

To all book likers out there, I must sugest Peter and the Starcatchers. Its kind of a kiddie book and is sort of a prequal to peter pan, but it is very good. Much better than the Dan Brown crap. It still pains me to think of that book.

As it is looking this weekend is going to suck. Sat will be a KA trip to the boston museum of science for a LotR display. Friday and Sunday will be a cross of studying for biochem, which I have an exam in next week and getting ready to present our findings on Fragile X. I got voted speaker since everyone else had an exam or something at a slightly earlier time than mine. I don't mind presenting, just wish it wasn't the same week as biochem.

I made media today, for the first time in about 7 years. Its kind of funny how the small of LB and TSA bring you back. Its like a sort of warm happy, but smelly sort of trip down memory lane. Makes me wonder what Jen my old lab partner has been up to for the last 7 years. She probably married her lameoid boyfriend and is working in her dad's lab supply compagny, but maybe she found it in herself to do more, be more. Well here is to hoping.

Otherwise today has been a run of the mill sort of day. Ran a gel and PCR. No odd dreams, which is good, some of them were geting a little too close to home if you know what I mean. I mean they were happening in my own bed for bright's sake.

I saw Van Helsing last night. It was a momument of crappiness, which made it an awesome film, if you're into bad movies. I will say the costumes were great and I really liked how they did the vampires. It made that other vamp film wth the same female lead look even crappier than it was. That was just a bad film, not a so bad its good film, like van helsing.
I did get some cool ideas for D&D weapons from it, so for those of you who haven't seen it yet, you're in for some suprises.

Well I am beat again. I think my body decided the best way to handle how tired I am is to not sleep very much last night. It seemed like I got up about every thirty minuites. At least I made it in here today without dozing off. The new book is helping. Not sure who it is by but it seems to be some sort of prequal to peter pan and is written decently.
Today is going decently so far. Haven't been yelled at yet, but I did find out this morning that I was given bad info again and all the time I spent here last night was a total waste as I had to rerun the gel. At least I didn't get in at 4AM this morning to stop it. That would have sucked.
I'm slowly working up some suprising adventure twists for the halloween game. It feels very good to be writing again, even if its just for a game. My prion story idea is comming along slow and needs to be hashed out better.
In other news it looks like I will be moving up here for some time. I've taken a closer look at apartments and have found some decent candidates. One even has a pool. the only question is can I survive on like 200$ spending money for a month?? My visa bill for last month was like $1700, of cource that had a couple of big shopping wal mart trips on it. why is it I seem to spend 100$ there eery time I go. Buying into the crappy gym I'm not in wasn't such a great idea eithor. Of cource thhat was when I though I was making 400$ a week doig 1/2 days at PFE.
In good news, I beleive Van Helsing came out today so I'll have to stop off and grab it on the way home. Great more buying.

It sems my psyche is finally starting to degrade quickly. I woke up this morning, unsure of who I was where I was or what that noise was. I'm not sure how separate my waking life is from my dream life and I'm slowly losing touch with what is real.
Or maybe thhats all just because I got up at 4:20 this AM.
Almost fell alseep a number of times on the ride in. I was litterally yelling at myself to stay awake.

The weekend its self was pretty god. As always I had a lot of fun friday night playing D&D, though the group is starting to get really big everything went pretty smoothly. I do feel somewhat bad for those people who don't talk too much in game as they are often left out. I should have something big and nasty created for next week, which just so happens to coencide with halloween weekend. I am excited to actualy write an adventure again. The new book adventure is better than the last, but I don't think a lot of the encounters are chalenging enough for this group.
I don't know why most adventures seem to be set for the mentality of a 12 year old. Though maybe the answer to that is in the game its self.

So far my PI type guy isn't in yet. I'm finding myself more and more annoyed with him, but I am slowly figuring out his game. Its no different than many other people's I have had to deal with. He does know more than me about a lot of what we are doing. And what he dosen't know about he speaks about in the same manner as what he does know about. Any advice he gives should be double and tripple checked. the same goes for the older grad student in the lab. Both are smart people, but neithor of them knows all they lead on that they do. I just have to remember to check any info I get my self and triple check any info someone else gives me.
I need to focus. The say to come to them with questions, but that usualy means I get laughed at a bunch then given wrong info. Or asked questions like why would you want to know that or questions about something related that I don't have answers for. Well I should get some stuff done before people get in.

Well back to my dream this morning. It was another very vivid sort of entity. I was at some sort of party with a lady friend of mine, who we'll call nancy as to protect her identity. Well nancy is chatting with me, then she gets up and leaves with some random gentelman. No big suprise where they are headed. I call out to jessica, I mean Nancy, and say something about her husband caring about what she is going to do. She shoots back she dosen't care.
A short while later she returns with one of those big smiles on her face. I ask her again if her husband would care what she was up to. she replies, "I don't care what he thinks, I was getting my nuts sucked." Then she takes off the skirt she was wearing and has on nothing underneath. Fortunatly for my peice of mind she dosne't actually have "nuts" in a classical sence but was refering to her femenine parts in that manner.
She begins to come on to me, and strong. I kiss her once or twice before I stop myself. Her husband is a good friend of mine and I say that I wouldn't want to ever do anything to come between the two of them or our friendship. She gets kind of a hurt look on her face and a tear falls from her face.
This is when I wake up.
Very odd very intense sort of dream, but not my usual sort of deal. I think my subconcusious is sowly eroding.

Oh and for those of you wondering her name isn't jessica eithor.

Well yesterday was a bit of a better day. At least I didn't get a talking to or yelled at and I got soe work done. My contamination/ DNA independance probelm seems to have been resolved so I can once again try to advance what I am doing.

I had a bit of an odd dream yesterday. I dreamt I was havig some sort of discussion with BZ. she was yelling at me because she thought I was having an affair, which I'm not also I was not in the dream. She was saying that since I had an affair it would be ok if she had one. At this point in the dream she starts packing a bag and getting made up as she already has some one picked out to have her afair with and its all set up. I woke up soon after she left.

This morning was an odd dream as well. which I may put up later.

Well its about 6:30 on wed night and I'm still here in the lab and probebly will be for another 2ish hours.
Today has been one shit of a day.
I got chewed out again by the lab head and it was not pretty. I don't even know if I should shift the blame. Even for following stupid things he told me to do. New rule may be to question everything. I do still want to work in this lab I think, I'm just sick of fucking everything up and I'm getting a growing suspicion I may not be wanted here.
It looks like I'm going to start having a lot more days like this to at least give the impression I'm trying hard.
After the chew out scession we had another talk and I was asked if I really wanted to do this rotation. He keept asking me if there is anythig wrong. Then he said something about maybe having made a mistake with me. that probably hurt the most. I just don't know what's wrong with me lately. My science has been next to crap. My lab skills feel like they are just shit. Maybe I just got soft on fancy technology and equipment or I'm just not used to using the crappy stuff we have here, but it dosen't seem to be getting any better. My hands have always been better than anyone around me's and now I can barly even load a gel right.

I'm not really sure what to do. Giving up isn't an option and never will be. Going to a different lab is a possibility, but it's not much different than giving up. I just feel lost in my self.
I didn't really want to be staying late tonight. Maybe thats part of the key. Perhapse I'm to have no life but research, lab time, and a few moments in between to eat or bitch about my day. In a lot of ways this would be easier if I was entirly detached from the world. I've been there before, but I'm not sure if I can go back as who I am. It takes a hard edge to deal with the lonliness and I feel dull.

Also this is a bit off topic, but i need a ruler. Apparently we don't have any here in the lab. Probably should have gone down to the book store, but that only just occured to me and the store has long been closed.

I better sign off for the night before this gets any worse.

Well some good news and some bad.
Unfortunatly this friday is salsa dancing, which means I will once again be deprived of knowing the tango. This friday is game night and nothing must stand in the way. I have some devious designs which must be deployed.

In good news I got what is known as a gentelman's B on my biochem test. In normal english it is equivelent to, "you failed moron, but since you're in grad school and we don't like to have F's on our books we're giving you a B". All I know is it still counts for credit and bitchy deans can eat me!!

To top yesterday off, apparently my PCR reaction got contaminated with DNa form some where so the negative control lit up.

this morning I woke up around 3am some time out of a dream that I was at school and had done some simple experiment wrong and Henry was berating me for it. My dreams are becomming to real life for my tastes.

I am beginning to feel the bug of writing creaping back into me. It has been quite soe time since I put pen to paper, or fingers to keyboard for creative purposes. No ideas have come yet, but I can feel the juices flowing.

So far today has been better, but then its just beginning. Besiides geting stuck at the bank behind some morons who were just sitting outside the drive-up window, apparently waiting for the bank to open and there by blocking the drive up ATM not much bad or annoying has happened. though I beleive we are going to get our first biochem tests back today, so it could rapidly go down hill.

Inspite of yesterdays occurances I am again wearing the ammulet. I gues as a scientist I need to see repeatability of an occurance before I beleive it. though I probably should have picked a better day to test it out.

well it seems my inverse shields are still up and holding strong.
Over the wekend I went wiith crew to king richard's fair. It was a good time. One of my favorite acts was back (he was absent last year) and in rare form. We didn't really see too many other acts, it seemd like I spent half of the day looking for people.
I did buy a new cool belt with a sort of keltic knot weave to it and a ammulet for good luck.
Since I started wearing it I have so far, had 3 lottery numbers come up...for last week's powerball. I got yelled at this morning for not having started a method I didn't kow I was supposed to start. then again for not comming in over the weekend to do work I didn't have the material for. then again for not ordering the material while the store was closed, not to mention I still don't have a code to buy stuff with.
Went to another sucky journal club with threw off my timing for the day's experiments.
Then I got spoken to again for not loading my gels right.

If I wasn't having such a bad day I'd probably find the irony in having life go worse while wearing good luck charms.

P.S. the Dan Brown book just seems to be getting worse. The charaters are complete morons and the plot is still dragging. Whole cassetts go by and it seems like the next one starts in the same place the last one did.
To me it feels kind of like the show 24, where there is a whole day of nonstop action, each hour has enough material to fill an hour show of time, except this book seems to be mostly filler. To me it feels like some edditor told him his 4 page stort story needed to be longer to sell a million copies, so he just fluffed it a lot.

Have you ever had one of those dragging days:
you wake up and drag your self out of bed.
Then drag your self into the shower.
Drag yourself into work.
And about that time you realize the whole world smells like really good Bar-B-Q. I swear if I close my eyes I don't think there is much difference between my desk and the best pulled pork sandwich on the face of the planet. Its like a slow cooked hickory smoked glaze with a spicy tangy sauce underneath, all covering the most tender succulent melt in your mouth sort of porkie bits you have ever seen.

I think I have decided Drugs are good for me and that I should start cramming every orifice imaginable with all the drugs I can find. A lot of people say drugs are bad, but it may just be they have't tried enough drugs. Thats why most drugs are enhancers, perforance enhancers, visual enhancers, heart rate ennhancers. And enhancers are good things so how could drugs be bad. Please bear in mind we're not talking about crappy drugs here. We're talking about drugs that could choke a horse.

Have you ever seen a bear and a horse fight? I did the other day and it didn't come out as I though it would. The bear won. It was so weird.
All I've heard for the last few weeks is about how great horses are, how they have done so much for mankind. Fuck that! A horse can't even beat up a bear. Thats right next to useless in my mind. Just like Dan Brown.

I have now begun tape 6 out of 12 and the story still isn't picking up. Unless you count the fact that it seems like he is about to wrap it up. Of cource I felt this way since the first tape. this story was over before it began. I've seen eppisodes of VIP and Relic Hunter with better plot lines. At least Tia Carrere and Pam Anderson are hot. And you know what would be even hotter? If the shows did a cross over so that the relics were actually body guards that doubled as fassion models.
I should go pitch that. Almost time for class have a good day faithful readers, and yes you in the back too.

Well this week has been going just peachy. I barly seem to have time to put anything in here any more.

Last friday was D&D night, for havig almost nothing prepared it seemed to go pretty well. At least I sem to be decent at that.
The weekend was reaxing for the most part. Went out with BZ and acquired paint to redo the bathroom, of cource no painting was actually done.

Monday went decently. In Mol. Basis of disease my group throughly trounced the other group. they gave up on their side of the prion argument almost before they got started. Our information did get torn to shreads, but at least we had what it took to present it. I'm thinking about beng group leader next time as I seem to have a firmer grasp on what is going on that the other folks in class.

Tuesday kind of sucked. I went up to NYC for a RNAi confrence. Its these sorts of things that remind me how much more i need to learn. Most of what they did went over my head, primarily because it was all presented so quickly. As interesting as some of it was I think my time would have been better spent in the lab.

Yesterday my boss tells me he thinks I'm not being productive enough. Unfortunatly for me to be more productive I'm gong to have to start spanding a lot more time here or get a close by appartment.

Today has been semi crappy so far. I woke up early and couldn't sleep. Then when I had gotten up showered and all that I decide to pay some bills. In with the bills is a letter from one of my credit cards saying my change of address went through smoothly, with an addres of some where in florida on it. I call them up and ask about the change of address. They respond with, so you no longer live in Louisianna. Apparently there has been like 5 changes of address for that card in the last month as well as 4 or 5K in pruchases (none of which I made). Don't most credit cards have custmer behavior checks or something like that? I haven't used this card in probably over a year, then apparently I decide I need to move all over the country and spend a lot of money on different internet purchases. Thats not strange now is it.

So I went in to Pfizer for the last time and got my time card signed off on. Its pretty much a lock that I won't be back. Apparently there was some decision made with budgets that only allows consultants to be paid shit. Well they can go blow. I did talk with the 2 guys I was training before I left. They are in a lot of trouble. The idiots in STL are going to fuck up everything there. I'd like to be petty and say good, but I feel bad for them.

In other news, Dan brown that guy who wrote angels and demons and the davinci code, is a really shitty writer. I'm in the midst of deception point. the plot is slow and non inspiring. The characters are fairly flat. His use of detail is about nonexistant, except in places you don't care...like the death of the asian scientist, which took a long borring time. Why is it that most authors today stink? Is it because most good plots have already been taken and almost everything is some half witted rehash of something that was crappy back when it was written? Who knows. Also he dosen't seem very good at thinking outside of his template box. The science isn't great, which is kind of sad since the book uses a lot of it.

Ran PCR again last night hope it worked. I'll know if a few hours. Though if it actually has the data I want to see is another question.

Well I should get back to producing.

I though I would start today off wiith a little "adding insult to injury" as a follow up of yesterday's excitement.
When I left the kingdom of the glorious drug overlords, I was making approximatly 54K. That was after 3 years of false bad reviews and screw you over raiises. If I had actually gotten raises based on what I had accomplished It should have been an addition of something like +1K '02, +2k '03, +3K '04. So we have 54 + 1+ 2+ 3 = 60K. So 60K / 50 weeks/ 40hr/week comes out to a cool 30$ per hour.
Let me just say again they can take their shit 33$/hr and cram it when it doth not see the light of day.

The election debates were on last night. I didn't watch them but caught a bit on NPR this AM. Pretty much what I was expecting. You know its pretty sad when the amount of mud slinging in a campaign makes comical films about campaigns "Head of State" look allmost real.

Today, I digest PCR product to see if I can see differences better when the DNA is in smaller chunks.